This is me unmasked

I‘m sitting by the heater as close as a girl can possibly get without melting.

I’m flicking through Pinterest, Instagram, Facebook

In a holey nightie that used to be my Mum’s.
My hair is torn apart like a windswept tree.
Washing lies unfolded on a chair and I could fold it.  But I don’t.
Underneath that chair lies a great big stain that I can’t for the life of me get out.  So I hide it.

Right now I am so far from Instagrammable.
So far from Pinteresting.

That it is laughable.

But sometimes I worry about coming across too perfectly.

And that scares me.

So for the record.
If ever there was any doubt.

Strip me back to my bare essentials and you will find that I am just me. Human. Breakable.

Skin and bone.
Cellulite and pimples.
Happiness and heartache.

I am all of that and then some.

My grass isn’t exactly greener.

It is more than likely just the rose-tinted glow of a pretty picture.
So that we both might lose ourselves for a moment, to a more pleasant ideal.

And dream a little bigger.

For just a little while longer.


Me unmasked vs. my camera-ready alter ego
grass is greener

[red_box] Don’t lose who you are in the blur of the stars!
Seeing is deceiving, dreaming is believing,
It’s okay not to be okay…

Lyrics from Who You Are – Jessie J


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  1. May 24, 2015 / 9:25 am

    you’ve done it again…made me think, appreciate, ponder and wonder…. 🙂

  2. May 24, 2015 / 9:33 am

    Well said Hun, we are all human xx

  3. May 24, 2015 / 9:41 am

    Green with envy. I wish I looked half as good ‘unmasked’ x

  4. May 24, 2015 / 10:33 am

    Oh stop it, I bet you you do (no, I know you do) – we’re each our own worst critic x

  5. May 24, 2015 / 10:35 am

    Thank you Hayley, ain’t that the truth, and its always good to remind ourselves of that 👍🏻

  6. May 24, 2015 / 11:03 am

    Beautiful inside and out! xx

  7. May 24, 2015 / 7:50 pm

    You look amazing both ways. I showed hubby and he couldn’t tell the difference, said you look nice in both photos 🙂 I think so too! But so very brave for you to be so honest, lots of love xoxo

  8. May 24, 2015 / 10:20 pm

    Haha ah you are too kind Lauren (and husband) but thank you. Do something everyday that scares you right 😉 xxx

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